"How's support raising going?"

Well- we are officially one week in. I've talked with a bunch of people - that's the fun part. And written emails and called people I don't know on the phone ( that's the less fun part).
Honestly.... I was kind of hoping after a week there'd be more progress then there has been. I know that's ridiculous...but when there's only about ten week to finish....well, I was hoping week one would be more exciting. Oh I haven't been bored for a minute. Anywho- here's the total progress so far:

Each little rectangle represents $50/month. There are 54 little rectangles. When they are all full, I will have the amount NTM recommends for living and working in the ministry. ( I added a "Give" tab to this blog, which will take you to the NTM webstite if you'd like to be part of making this happen!) Again- please keep praying. I would like to head back to the Missouri August 7th (yes as in 2012)-so..... yeah. Lots and lots of praying is required!

• Praise God for the people who have volunteered to be part of my/the/God's financial team to help get the Gospel out!
• Pray: that God would move others to get involved and the other 48 little rectangles to get filled in. 

And so it begins....

well... made it. I'm really here. Back in Philadelphia. To start support raising. Good gravy. Makes my head spin, and, when I think about how much money needs to be raised by the end of the summer... well, I'm not going to lie, it makes me feel a tiny bit dizzy and more than a tiny bit nauseous.

God keep reminding me though, of the beginning of John 16, "Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God believe also in me." Worrying is NOT honoring to God. And that, after all, is the point of all this- to know God, and for others to know Him better- including those who live where they have no chance to hear of Him. But God is honored too in the little things- in the every day. And He takes care of the big picture.

And that's good to know. Because that is what saves from hiding under the covers until August. Looking at the little things- the little minute by minute decisions to love and honor Him. He takes care of the big picture.

The Plunge (and prayer requests)

Well... they're gone . The classroom is all empty and dark and closed. Normally when I turn off the lights and lock the door, I look back at the room and it looks full of possibilities for tomorrow. But today it just looked depressing. My heart is  a more than a little achey today, to be honest. I will miss my kiddos so so much over the summer.

But I am excited to head back to towards the home front tomorrow- and spend the summer there and get to share with lots of people all the awesome stuff God has been and is up to. And I am excited to see what God does.

You see, I am praying to be back here beginning of August. And in order to do that, I have to enough financial support to come back. That happens when people and churches get excited about what God's doing and give financially. Full financial support woudl be roughly the equivalent of 54 people giving $50 a month. But there is a huge need to be back here by August. Yes this August- like 2012. Which is a very God sized job (ie- the fastest support raising known to man). There are so many impossibles for that to happen- I'm kind of excited to see what God does. so here we go- diving in to see what He does.

So: here's some things to please be lifting up to God, so we can all be blown away together at His awesomeness:

-Financial Support to be in by August 6th (staff training starts the 10th I need a day to pack and two days to drive back)
- Pray for my car. Poor Bilbo has... struggles. And he's got a LOT of driving to do this summer. Pray that he continues to live up to his name and get me there and back again, while avoiding as much adventure as possible :)
-my focus to stay on Jesus, for me to remember that HE is the point of all this

His eye is on the sparrow...

I have been thinking about birds nests. Did you ever think about how crazy it is that birds (birds- think about how big their brains aren't) can pile random bits of a twig and fiber together- not only into an actual shape, but into a thing that their babies are safe in, AND something that can still hold its shape after falling out of a tree. And they do all of it with their feet and their mouths. Yeah- I don't know anybody who could do that.

Isn't that incredible that God did that for them? He thought so intently about what birds would need that He packed that much building skill into their little pea sized brains. And every year, no matter how many birds are building their nests- there's enough twigs, stringy/fibery stuff, and worms to go around.

"Fear not, you are worth more than many sparrows" (Luke 12:7) If He takes that good care of the birds, think how much care He takes of  you and me?

The Road Ahead

This summer begins what is quite possibly the scariest thing I've ever done: support raising. DundundunDUN. Oh my word- SO overwhelming. I SO want to be back in the fall for classes here. But to go from 8% to fully supported in one summer? Unheard of. Insane. Impossible. And all kinds of other big words that are basically the adult version of "Ah!!! Scary!!" Not that any of this is news. But its getting closer now, and therefore, scarier. 

I have found, over the last few weeks, that I am relating more and more to Peter walking on the water. I alternate between being totally relaxed and confident that God's going to bring in exactly the right amount at exactly the right time like He always has, and freaking out because this absolutely ridiculous and I must have totally lost my mind to even be attempting this! When my eyes are on Jesus- I can walk through/on/over/ these crazy waves of support raising. But the minute my eyes are off Jesus- plunk!- I drop like a stone. Jesus makes the difference like nothing else possibly could. 

He's been reminding me of that lately through this song called "Wait and See" by Brandon Heath. Maybe these words will be an encouragement to you in where God has you. They sure have been to me as I think about this summer:

Still wondering why I'm here, 

Still wrestling with my fear,

But oh! He's up to something

And the farther along I go,

I've seen enough to know that I'm

Not here for nothing

He's up to something. 

Perspective

What's Next?

It’s funny, when I say this is what I’d like to do long term, people who have kids in or have ever worked in childcare look all excited and say “really?!” and people who don’t have kids or haven’t worked in childcare look at me like I’m crazy and say “really?”

But yes- I believe this is where God has me- and I love it! I am SO excited to be here, being part of the Gospel getting out to places its never been! So- the next step is… raising support/connecting with other people who are also excited about what God is up to and would like to be a part! That will, Good Lord willing and the creek don’t rise, be starting this summer.

Currently I’m in kind of an in-between place, I’m not a student or a member of the mission. The plan is to join the mission at the beginning of June (doing the paperwork now) and then finish support raising by August . No you didn’t read that wrong. Yes I know that’s insane. See, once I become a member, I can’t come back and serve till I’ve finished support raising. So I want to get done FAST.  It’s kind of complicated, but the biggest two reasons are personnel needs here, and lack of housing there.

Guys, I really, really, REALLY need you all to be praying about this- because from a strictly human standpoint- this is 100% impossible- by all statistics I’ve already got like 6 strikes against me as far as support raising goes (single, support ministry, US ministry etc , etc) But with God all things are possible! And if He wants me here (and I believe He does), then He’ll make a way. So PRAY guys- only God can get me from 8% to the minimum 60% by August!