I want to be "home". I miss my family. (yes, already). I miss my friends. I miss church. I miss being actually involved in ministry rather than just getting my feet wet again. I miss my kids. I almost miss work, and I definitely miss my friends from work.
I don't like homework. I'm so, so tired, and more than a little overwhelmed.
I wonder if I can do this. I wonder if I even want to. I wonder if I have "enough" passion to reach the lost. I wonder what the heck I am thinking to sign up to go live in the middle of nowhere again, as things in the world get scarier and scarier.
I wonder and I wonder, but I just don't know.
And in the end all I'm sure of is this... Jesus loves me, and called me to Him. And if this is where He wants me, than this is where I'll be. Because He is totally, completely, so much more than worth it.
2 comments:
Anna, thanks so much for your honesty. I can totally relate, though in completely different circumstances, both to being totally overwhelmed and to only blogging about the times when I'm not :) I'll be praying harder for knowing that things are sometimes tough, so thanks for being open. You're going to be used of God for amazing things, I have a hunch! Blessings, friend! Love, Jodi
I wish you could be here.
I saw your folks at Thrive (:
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